BUTTERFLY DAYS!

Two consecutive days, I saw this kind of butterfly... I can't upload my pictures, so I just surf the net, then I saw this one... Same as the butterfly that I saw. Color and everything... They are so beautiful and I am so fascinated that I just look at them a long time...


God is so good in creating this things. Yet they just live for a short period of time... Beautiful as they are but they just only have a short span of time to live... to fly....and to roam around.

I bet they just enjoying the time they have, flying and flying, landing to those beautiful flowers out there..

                                               SOLITUDE OF LOVE by: NovemberCabuena
        “No again Ru, not again”... I’m talking to myself. My sweetest nightmare struck me again. I look to my bedside table and see the calendar. June 18, 2008. My wall clock is ticking rapidly or it is really the affect of my dream. My heart beats faster. It’s 12:00 midnight. I’m missing her so much. So much that I can still feel the pain again. The pain of losing the one you love so much... I feel the emptiness again, the emptiness that only my Cara can fill. And that sweet nightmare... how lovely my Cara is... how beautiful she is... My one true love. It goes smoothly for a minute, but again as it is, I am doomed to the deadly end of it. She’s slowly vanishing as darkness enveloping her, leaving me shouting, crying... I long to touch her, to kiss her, to hug her tightly for the last time.  Hugging myself again. I found myself talking to God, asking him why he’d taken away from me my Cara... I fell asleep without even realizing it.


        Morning sunlight awakens me... with its splendid glory reflected to my whole being. I got up to bed, went straight to my window pane, open it and welcome the sunshine on my face. I can see the morning dew on the leaves of the trees outside. I suddenly found myself smiling. It’s our 10th year anniversary. It’s been a long time I guess...yes it is...until now I’m doomed in here... to this place on where we’ve first build our dreams, and promised to love each other for forever...to be together ‘til the very end of the time. Time bounded memories’... timeless beauty of this one called love... I’m living with her memories. I’m moving forward, though. But I guess I really can’t move on. I can’t. I don’t want to. Because I LOVE HER SO MUCH! I never stopped I never will! I keep on praying for my Cara. She wants me to be happy here. God knows I’m trying my hardest to live each day of my life being normal. But what really makes me sad is that, every time that her memory flashes back, when the time of her great suffering. I still keep on telling myself how useless I am that time... I want to take away all the pain, but I can’t do anything... but she keeps on telling that it is all the plan of God. She really possessed that positivity. She keeps on telling me that her sickness is a blessing from God. See the brighter side of all things. I’ve witnessed how she handled herself. How strong she has been made by God. Living everyday with her unshaken faith to God. That’s what faith can do. Faith can make someone fearless. My Cara keeps on praising God with all her might even on her death hour... I am not a crying man, but by just remembering how great she has been made God, I just burst into tears. I’ve learned a lot to her. And still she keeps on inspiring me for all the memories I have for her. She is the instrument given by God to me so that I can be able to change myself for the better... To come back to God...
        “Be happy Ru, keep on living with the Lord. Continue walking with him, continue to help others... at last Ru, I am going back home, I can be able to be with my Father God now... Don’t worry, you’ll be fine. I am praying for you, Love... We’ll gonna see each other again... I gonna wait for you there... I LOVE YOU SO MUCH RU!” My Cara’s last few words before her departure... she died beside me while we were waiting for the sun to set... I wanna cry I wanna shout, but there is the part of me that holding me back... part of me...saying... “Be happy to her...soon you’ll gonna see each other again”... Praying for her safe journey going back home...
        And now as I am standing here in front of my window... I am now filled with excitement.. I feel the current of positivity inside my body. I’m now counting my days. Waiting for my departure on this SOLITUDE OF LOVE... I know she is still waiting for me... Soon I’ll going to see her again. I was being diagnosed having a brain tumour on its deadly stage. The clock is ticking...TICK TOCK TICK TOCK... I knew it, I have only few remaining time.. Soon my earthly life will end. At last I can be able to see her again, to hug her, to kiss her, to touch her... Soon God will take away my life. I’m still keeping my FAITH. Believing in Him ‘til the very end of my journey. I LOVE MY CARA, AND I  LOVE GOD. I know now how much God really loves me... GOD LOVES ME BEYOND THIS SO CALLED ETERNITY...

-FIN-

September 10, 2011

 Hello mga kapatid! Ako'y nagbabalik. Natakasan ko nanaman ang aking busy na schedule. Sige na nga... Di ko na idedelete etong Blog ko na ito... Mahal ko 'to eh... Updates sa buhay ko: PAGOD NA PAGOD NA AKO! haha.. yun lang po. gusto ko lang ipangalandakan na sobrang busy na ako sa pag-aaral sa mga business ko.. HECTIC!
Hopefully, I can be able to published more post... Namimiss ko na talaga ang pagsusulat dito...

Okay... Hanggang dito na po muna... next time ko na lang ipapublish mga gawa ko...

GOD BLESS US ALL!

I need someone to talk, kahit sa text lang... hahaha... pampatanggal stress...^_^[segway]

Orange Roses

I Fell In-Love…

The first time I’ve heard about Orange roses…it arouses my feeling… And then when I saw one…I soooo love iiittt..

I’ve even found myself surfing the net and browsing different sites for me to see different pictures and blogs about ORANGE ROSES…

Primary Significance: Desire, Enthusiasm and Passion

Orange roses have emerged as one of the true stand-outs among today's popular rose varieties. The fiery color of an orange rose immediately conjures up passionate thoughts of romance. They can also be reminiscent of the warmth of a glowing sunset, or the sweetness of citrus. Orange roses come in a range of shades, from bright orange to softer coral and peach colors. Since the introduction of the orange rose into the world of roses, they have quickly found their place in the hearts and imaginations of rose aficionados everywhere.

The orange rose has mainly come to be regarded as the symbol for desire, enthusiasm and passion. Being a literal mixture of the colors yellow and red, orange roses were often seen as a bridge between the feelings of friendship symbolized by yellow roses, and love associated with red roses. Giving a bouquet of orange roses could be a sign of emerging romantic feelings and the desire to move a relationship beyond the stage of friendship. In addition, they can be an expression of fascination, or a gift to say "I'm proud of you." Orange roses have also become popular as a Halloween flower.

Color Meaning of Orange or Coral Roses

Desire, Enthusiasm, Pride

Bright orange is a color of warmth and energy and orange roses convey the desire and fervor that the sender feels for the recipient.

These bright rose blossoms also can say "I'm proud of you."

Just as coral is more toned down than orange so are the feelings communicated by this color rose. The coral rose still speaks to desire coupled with happiness.

I Thank God for this day...

Gusto ko sanang mainis sa sarili ko pero di naman ako mainis- inis... Wala eh, sobrang peaceful ng puso ko... ayaw ko ng mainis...patience nga naman...
gusto ko din sanang maasar sa mga taong nagpapakita ng di kanais-nais na gawa...pero iniintindi ko na lang sila...

Grabe lang talaga... i want people to be happy...yun bang bangag na bangag ka na nga pero mapatawa o mapangiti mo sila... ayos na pakiramdam mo... masayahin talaga akong tao... Tanong nga ng mga nakakapansin, parang wala daw akong problema...pero i really do have my problems... normal pa din akong tao... I just surrender it to God...my past, present...and my future....


Sometimes nakakaramdam din naman ako ng kawalan at syempre kalungkutan...yun bang gusto ko rin naman yung may nagpapasaya sakin...ano 'to...parang unfair na ah... napapasaya ko sila pero ako? sila ba napapasaya din ba nila ako? iniintindi ba talaga nila ako ng tunay?

Pero akin din namang naisip na sadya talaga akong ginawa ni God na ganito... Masaya na talga ako na nakakapag-hatid ako ng kasiyahan sa kapwa ko...

I make it to a point na kung sinuman yung makadaupang palad ko, before ako mag-bid ng goodbye...sinisiguro ko munang napangiti ko sila..

Never let consume yourself with sinful acts... just be cool

mainis ka man ngayon, wag mong masyadong damdamin...
lilipas din lang kasi yan...

We deserve to be happy...

Excited ako sa pasukan...pero di pa ako nakapag-enroll...(^_^)

PORSCHE**

P'9521...I'm inlove to this...hahaha...



pati na din eto...etong dalawang 'to ang pinakagusto ko...sobra...haaaayyyyy...hahaha...naiisip ko nanaman kasi...

Mga Bagyong Aking Nasaksihan..Kahapon at Ngayon

Good Morning muna...Masaya ang aking pakiramdam sapagkat ngayon ay umuulan na... It really makes me feel good...Answered prayer nanaman... Ang GREAT TALAGA ni GOD... Although may bagyo, I just really pray na di makaapekto ng sobra sa aming lahat dito... Basta I sooo Love RAin... Kahapon and until now, happy ako... God really makes me happy...



Kahapon kasi nakasama ko yung mga primates na alam mo na...mga kaibigan ko...este kalahi ko pala...[laugh] Gosh! minsanan lang talaga akong lumabas pero I really make it a point na maging super meaningful talaga... We started together ni JEROME GALLARDO[pwe! ang sama talaga ng dating kapag full name yung ginagamit namin, hahaha...para bang insultong malupet yun...hahaha]


wag ka matawa ha? Sinadya ko talaga na eto yung ipost kong picture nya kasi sobrang sagwa...hahaha...hindi po sya Gay! nagfifeeling Gay lang...hahaha... Adik ka JErome...hahaha...but anyways, he's so nice talaga although alam kong pasaway sya... salamat sa pagiging Tripping absorber kahapon...sobrang waley mo talaga..hahaha... Aminin mo...na-super-dupper-stunned ka kahapon kay Maria Andrei nuh? hahaha... Ang sexy nya kaya kahapon...[Maria Andrei wag ka mag-react...I forbid you...hahaha] Sa uulitin tol...langyang remnants ng uling yan, napunta na lahat sa akin kahapon...hahaha..halo-halo is delicious...Jerome kamukha mo yung player ng volleyball kahapon...the same lipstick...dashing red...with matching soft foundation...hahaha...

Eto na si Maria Andrei... ang pangalawang accomplish ko... inistorbo sa bahay...hahaha...Woowowooow! naka-mini pa kahapon...hahaha..
Kapatid kong hilaw...zup? ayan na si Mr. Rain oohhh...magsawa na tayo! hahahaha....Thanks sa lakas ng trip mo kahapon...sobra! Maria Andrei! Sige, wala na talagang basagan ng trip..hahaha.. ikaw baliw ka ba or sadyang abnormal ka lang? hahaha... nagtatanong lang okay? ang ganda ng kuha nya dito nuh? sino na yung may codename ng 1211blahblah? braek na daw sila ohh...my princess...nakikinig kasi ako habang ginagawa ito...hahaha...baliw talaga...sorbra...hahaha...adiiiik...I LOVE YOU kapatid! ingat ka okay?sana pasukan na...
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Sumunod ay etong lalaking ang EEEEEWWWWAAAANNNN!
Men! Ang sobrang TABAAAAA na NYAAAAAA!!!
Kuya DANIEL... Tsk! Yan kasi kumakain ka ng cellphone...
Payyyaaaat sya dito--------------------------------------------->
nakuu...ngayon para na syang si ummmmm....basta tabashing na sya...hahaha...I MISS YOU KUYA DANE...thanks sa time...dumaan ka sa kamay nina MARIA ANDREI at MARICRIS...Tripping mode...Shock absorber...sige...lahatin na...Thanks sa time...sa effort...sa tawa...sa kaadikan...saaaa
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God bless you Kuya Daniel..
Ngayon naman powerpuff girls naman...pacute si mojojojo...unggoy na badddddd!

Ang susunod naman ay si PAUL JOHN REY WILLIAM BUTARDO! Haba talaga! pero di pwede ishortcut yan...Tama ba yung "REY"? Hayyyy... Thanks sa pagpunta...wag masyadong adikkkkk sa pocketbook...hahaha... thanks sa paghahatid uli...sa uulitin...heheeeee
[The END na yung powerpuff girls] hahaha....dumidilim ang kalangitan oh...bubuhos na ang ,alakas na ulaaaaaaannnnn...
salamat sa time...thanks thanks thanks.....
diet parekz...kaya mo yan...hehehe...Loveyah!
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Bakit ka nga ba nagsosorry pa kung di naman yun nakakagamot? ang sagot ko...EXPRESSION lang yun...hahaha...ayan tuloy natuto nanaman si Jerome...hahaha...
Pasensya na kayo ha? wala kasi akong magawa s ngayon...pero sa ngayon eto muna yung ginagawa ko para naman masabing may ginagawa ako kasi nga naman di ba? nakakabagot minsan yung walang ginagawa...hahaha...gusto ko tuloy kumain ng fried iCE CREAm...nasupalpal ako kahapon kay MARIA ANDREI! GAntihan talaga...hahaha...ayan...natabunan nanaman ng deep thinking yung mga sasabihin ko pa...tinatamad na akong magtype...kayo na lang magtuloy nito...hahaha...

My good friends... I'm here saying na eventhough we have our own life to live na, yet the friendship remains... di ko kayo mabiti-bitiwan eh...maybe kasi primates din ako kagaya nyo...
hahahaha... Gosh! Umuulan na...masaya... maybe tulog pa yung iba sa inyo...hahaha... I just pray to God na iguide na kayo always... May God protects you all from all harm. from all anxieties... Sana pakabait kayo palagi ha? Jerome tama ka na iba na talaga mga tao ngayon...makasalanan...fallen world kasi yung tinitirahan natin eh... pero may HOPE pa naman...agree? I LOVE YOU ALL...

HAKUNA MATATA